i thought about deleting you from my diary. but i couldn’t be bothered..i locked you away at the back of my mind nice and tight. got used to the scratching sound, even though it gets too loud sometimes.

if i tell myself that i will forget your face, then i will. 

if i act like you don’t mean a thing to me, my mind will surely catch up.

if i pretend this is not happening..then it’s not happening.

this way i can savely forget in my mind because i have a backup memory. one day i might want to remember how this felt and that there are a lot of cheap tasteless stupid common fucks out there. 

watch out.

don’t be one of the others. don’t be a victim. be honest and caring all you want. just don’t trust anybody to treat you the same. 

don’t even trust them to be ashamed of themselves. don’t expect them to really regret and change their ways. don’t expect them to think of another person’s feelings next time.

some people just lack insight to their own motives and feelings. they lack strenght and compassion. they lack personality.

accept. 

tell yourself they’re to be pitied because all they ever do is destroy. because they hurt those they claim to love the most. because they will never know what real love is. 

move on. 

ignore the little voice in your head that says that feelings between two people are the most precious and beautiful thing there is in this absurd broken world at all and should never be misused, have to be handled carefully, because there are scars that don’t heal. 

and how in the world, why in the world could they..?

ignore the little voice in your head that says…still. kind of makes you want to not have to feel, knowing what people are able to do to each other.

doesn’t it.

archive…fuck you.

There’s a look on your face I would like to knock out

See the sin in your grin and the shape of your mouth

All I want is to see you in terrible pain

Though we won’t ever meet I remember your name

Can’t believe you were once just like anyone else 

Then you grew and became like the devil himself

Pray to god I think of a nice thing to say

But I don’t think I can so fuck you anyway

You are scum, you are scum and I hope that you know

That the cracks in your smile are beginning to show

Now the world needs to see that it’s time you should go

There’s no light in your eyes and your brain is too slow

Can’t believe you were once just like anyone else

Then you grew and became like the devil himself

Pray to god I can think of a nice thing to say 

But I don’t think I can, so fuck you anyway

Bet you sleep like a child with your thumb in your mouth

I could creep up beside put a gun in your mouth

Makes me sick when I hear all the shit that you say

So much crap coming out it must take you all day

There’s a space kept in hell with your name on the seat

With a spike in the chair just to make it complete

When you look at yourself do you see what I see

If you do why the fuck are you looking at me

Why the fuck why the fuck are you looking at me

There’s a time for us all and I think yours has been

Can you please hurry up ‘cos I find you obscene

We can’t wait for the day that you’re never around

When that face isn’t here and you rot underground

Can’t believe you were once just like anyone else

Then you grew and became like the devil himself

Pray to god I can think of a nice thing to say 

But I don’t think I can so fuck you anyway 

So fuck you anyway.